She is having my baby.

Thursday, August 30, 2018

So we have been together now for ten years. In that time we have taken no safeguards against pregnancy. The doctors told her with her health conditions, PCOS and endometriosis, we had like a 3% chance of conceiving. So we thought that it would not happen.

We were OK with this.

We did not feel like we had to have a child to complete our life together. We imagined our future life would be filled with travel and adventure. Besides, I am 40 turning 41 soon... if we have a baby now will I still have the energy to take care of a baby? The first time I did this I was 15, and it was exhausting. We just accepted that it was not going to happen for us and moved on.

Then last week Aunt Flow never made her visit. We have had a few times when she was late. I always get a little more excited than I should, and I talk her into taking a pregnancy test. Sure enough, that is all it takes to get the blood flowing. This time it was different.

She called me in the bathroom while she sat on the bowl. All she could say was babe come here and told me to look at the stick. I said well you're pregnant as I put it back down on the counter and went back in the living room to sit in my chair.

I did not know what to think. A big part of me could not believe my eyes. I just had to sit down and let it soak in. It was like hitting the lottery. You always hope for it, but you do not think it is going to happen no matter how many tickets you buy. When you have the winning ticket in your hand, you check it like ten times before you believe it. We stared at that stick for a while, like it was a Picasso.

At first, we were not going to tell anyone. I wanted to post a picture of the test stick to every social media site, but I think there is some etiquette to these types of things. We had to call the family... our moms would be upset if they found out on facebook.

It has kind of been strange like I am living in a haze. I can not stop thinking about all the things we have to do to prepare, all the wonderful things that I have to look forward to, and all the ways our lives are going to change.

Even as I write this I find it hard to keep a train of thought. I want to write about shopping for prenatal vitamins, Baby names, and cloth diapers. But as fast as I think about one thing another pops up in my head.

We have our first first time parent class on Tuesday and we are excited. Maybe by then, I will be able to hold a thought in my head for a full minute. I am sure we will have a lot more to write about then. Right now we are trying to learn which essential oils are safe with the pregnancy and how to adjust Kayla's diet.

I know this will not exactly be an announcement as before I felt free to write this Kayla posted online. So it is just a post for me to tell anyone who wants to hear it I am going to be a daddy and I am super excited.



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